Hello lovelies!!
It's my favorite blog post of the week - the one where we get to talk about all of the healthy things we did this week that are NOT scale-related!
I'm usually a whole lot better at writing these things down, but I didn't have time this week so I'm just winging this one.
First off, my entire week has really been about training for the 5K I'm doing on June 1st. On Saturday, I set out to run and ran a whole .9 miles, but since then I haven't been able to do it again. I'm kind of bummed about that, actually.
Right now, I'm in a state of excitement and despair because I keep thinking to myself, "Wow, you're really running!" Then, separately: "How the EFF am I going to do this?? I can't even run a #$%@&% mile yet." Obviously, the excitement part comes from just being able to run at all since I never thought I would EVER be able to. My despair comes in because I know that it takes time, but up to this point, I've been able to do a little bit more each time and twice now, I've tried to run the whole mile and I can't. I've heard that running can be a huge mental thing and right now, I can't get my mental state to a place where I'm not chastising myself and I really need to. I'm running with a buddy who is also in a whole lot better shape that I am and even though she's not a runner either, she can run much farther than I can. We stop to walk because of me. It's hard for me to feel okay with her trying to "stick by me" because I HATE feeling like I am holding anyone back. I've always preferred to work out on my own and in times like these, I feel it even more. I don't think that's helping my mental state, either. I keep telling her that she doesn't have to keep my pace, that I want her to try to run it better for herself; this is her race, too.
Okay, those are my complaints and here are the good parts about what I AM actually proud of. Last week, my best time was 5 minutes; I could sustain my pace for 5 minutes and not feel like dying...this week, I was able to run a full 1/2 mile without stopping and yesterday I did that THREE times. It is definitely getting better...but I have no patience, clearly.
Separately, for Easter, I did not overdo it - don't get me wrong, I ate some damn yummy Easter dinner, but I didn't go over my calories for the day so I'm okay with it. I also did so much better for the weekend as a whole than I normally do. And all I had for Easter candy was about 15 jelly beans for the week. Pretty good, right??
I hope you all had some great NON-Scale victories of your own this week!
Love this!! I agree about running alone. For some reason I just do better when I am solo. I'm not worried about keeping up with someone else or holding them back from doing their best since we are all at different levels.
ReplyDeleteGreat job Jenn! I know that running with someone in better shape can be daunting and overwhelming. I am going through the same exact struggle right now myself. I end up SO sore the next day and my friend Cassie has already recovered. It makes me feel guilty. But here's the deal- Cassie says she LIKES working out with someone. That it makes her happy. And I'm sure she is getting some sort of feelings of accomplishment when she see's me progressing and dropping pounds. We just need to focus on that part. Someday we will be there with our girlfriends. We have to build up to get to that part first- and don't let your mind fool you. You are amazing!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your NSV I too am not a runner and I agree about the impatient part we want it now don't we!!! Keep up the good work.
ReplyDeleteI understand the running thing... It's definitely a mental struggle for me. It's getting easier, but I'm no where near being able to run .9 miles.. No way. Keep it up girl!
ReplyDelete-Sammie
Way to go on the NSV's! And I feel you on the Couch to 5K thing...I can't even run a whole 5 minutes twice!! It's certainly a little terrifying thinking of race day when you can't even go a mile. But I'd say you're much further along than I am! Keep at it - you're doing amazing!
ReplyDeleteI have kind of given up on the running thing, just because I cannot get my mind right either! I feel you on that one! Good for you for sticking with it, because I at this point have no desire to run...like at all! hahaha!! Good job on not over doing it for Easter, isn't it nice to know you can make it through a holiday without getting crazy? That's awesome
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the NSV's with your running! I am still working on endurance too! I am now following you from annstersdomain.blogspot.com
ReplyDeletethose are such great NSV's. Running (or anything) takes time and is difficult. If it was easy, everyone would be doing it! Keep working hard, and sooner or later (probably sooner) you'll be wondering how you just ran 3 miles without stopping!
ReplyDeleteHave a great day!
Madalyn
Great job, Jenn! Those are some great NSV's! The running thing may come in time, for me, running just isn't in the cards. I hate running and that probably won't change over time. But it is awesome that you were able to run .9 miles, I think that's a huge accomplishment!
ReplyDeleteHi! Visiting from the linkup and now following. Congrats on the runs! I give you credit for even starting, because runny is yucky until you start to see some progress. I think you're doing great!
ReplyDeleteRunning is so hard for me too. I used the couch to 5k app last year and thought it was so good that I'm using it this year, too. :) Please give yourself credit for what you're doing, not what you're not doing. (I need to take this advice, too.) GOOD JOB!! (new commenter...hi!)
ReplyDeleteThat's so awesome that you didn't eat any extra calories during Easter. Always hard.
ReplyDeleteYou are so amazing! I seriously have been loving reading all your running posts and I can't wait to see how you run that 5k. You are going to kill it!
ReplyDeleteI completely get where you are coming from. I am still finding it difficult to consider myself a runner. While it still isn't easy. I am running further and further. Don't give up. And don't worry about speed. That will come later!
ReplyDeleteYou are doing great! Don't be worried about your pace. It will come. I still don't run the entire time. You are still out there and that is what's important. Keep it up!
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