Transformation Tuesday

It has been a few weeks since this picture was taken and it has taken me this long to gather up the nerve to post it.  Even though I am not the girl in the pink top any longer - I am still embarrassed that I WAS that girl at one time.  The thing is that I didn’t even feel THAT big…how could I not KNOW??!  Well, of course I knew…

I remember that time very clearly.  It was at a time that I was having some health issues and it was just a few days before that I was ordered an MRI.  So I showed up to have the MRI done and guess what?  The most mortifying thing you could imagine happened…to me.  I didn’t fit into the MRI machine.  I cry a little bit right now thinking about how much that hurt me.  Not only was it embarrassing…I was basically being told that my weight would hinder the doctors from being able to save me.  They couldn’t even do what they needed to do to make me better.  It was probably one of the lowest times of my life.  It was even enough to spur me to lose a little bit of weight.  I joined Weight Watchers and lost about 37lbs in 6 months.  But then I stopped doing WW and I gained 20lbs back.  Weight loss fail…again…disappointment in myself…again.

It was another year before I finally made the decision to never look back…and it was the best decision I have ever made – and the hardest journey I have ever been on.  Since then, there have been lots of highs and lows…but the difference in the “new” lows is that they come more from being frustrated when things aren’t happening as fast as I want them.  They aren’t the same types of disappointing lows that I used to put myself through. 

I’m sharing this picture with you…but it’s more for me… because I needed to see this to remind myself that I have come so far; I am finally living the life I was destined for.  I have so little in common with that girl.  That girl was afraid of EVERYTHING.  She was afraid to try new things; she was even afraid to try old things!  She was stuck.  Stuck in a place that she told herself was life.  It wasn’t living…

If you’re reading this today and you are looking for motivation, let me tell you this:    It’s going to be hard, and lots of days you are going to want to quit and that’s okay…but every single time you pick yourself back up again and move forward is another victory.  And then one day it’s not going to be so hard.  So just do it.  Start today; it’s worth it…I promise you.