June 22, 2012

Phew!  Plateau update:  Busted through it!  Lost 2lbs at weigh-in this morning!  36lbs gone!  Sorry 35, I shot right past ya!  I'm not going to write a big journal entry but did want to say what I did differently this week.  I raised my calories, eating more, and didn't try for huge workout calories.  I know, weird concept, right?  But it worked.  This was the highest weight loss week I've had since March.  I toned down my workout timing (40-60 minutes vs. 60-90), attempted to do some High Intensity Interval Training (HIIT), and burned between 300-500 calories in my workouts.  I'm attempting to eat at my BMR and workout like a normal person, not a crazy person.  I'm going to try it again next week and see if there really is something to this "eat more, lose more" concept.  I'll keep you posted!

June 20, 2012

It has been awhile since I posted a journal entry!  I had hopes of posting my past few weeks of weight loss with the goal to post when I got to 35lbs.  But, I have hit another plateau and here I sit at 34lbs; and I’ve been here for a few weeks now.

I’m a really stubborn person and everyone who knows me knows that I am the most impatient person, too.  In my last post, I stated my goal was to get to 50lbs by my birthday.  That was a pretty realistic goal when I made it 6 weeks ago.  Only now, with this slower crawl in my “30s”, that goal is getting further and further away.  As of now, to hit that goal, I have 10 weeks to lose 16lbs.  That’s more than 1 ½ lbs a week and with weeks like I’ve been having, it’s not looking good.  Hubby has reminded me that these mini-goals are great, but the bigger goal is to keep doing what I’m doing.  It’s not important WHEN I get there, it’s important TO get there.  He’s right…even if I hate to admit it!

It pains me to acknowledge that I’m struggling, but I know that this is reality.  And it’s not only my reality it’s A LOT of people’s reality.  I want to be a success WITH struggles to overcome.  Overcoming them is an amazing feeling!  I recently read a story about a person who lost a ton of weight.  What they did was INCREDIBLE.  But as I read their story I kept waiting to read about their struggle…how some days/weeks it was difficult and there were no budges in the scale…it never came.  They gained a lot of weight, then saw the light one day and BAM!  Dropped 300+lbs.  I’m not saying that they didn’t have weeks like I’m having, but their story didn’t tell us about those weeks.  Just that they got on a plan, stuck to it and it was gone.  It was inspiring to read about that success, truly, but I didn’t relate to it.  That’s why I decided to post about my frustrating journey this week.  For many, weight loss is a constant struggle!  I would have liked to say that I got on one plan and stuck to it and it’s been successful for me, but the truth is:  every week, I hop on that scale and I really just don’t know what it’s going to say.  Some weeks I do everything right and I lose; some weeks I do everything right and I don’t lose a darn thing.  The reality is that I’m a slave to that scale…and if just praying to it worked, I’d be doing bikini commercials by now.

So, I adjust some things:  change up my workouts / add or subtract calories / pray some more…and I wait.  The difference is that this is the NEW me now.  Although it’s extremely frustrating, I now know to keep going.  What I don’t or WON’T do is quit; there’s not even an ounce of me that wants to do that.  I keep going because I know it’s the right thing to do.  Even if I want to throw the scale out the window, which I might just do!

So check back later to see if I hit the next big goal – I’m not sure what that will be at this point.  50lbs is still in my sights, but at this point, 35lbs is looking pretty damn good to me.